Fathers Day pt 3

I hear him talking

but I don't understand

The baby kicks

making this confusing fog heavy

too heavy

The world is spinning and

I hear him talking

but I don't understand

He's leaving me

He's leaving me?

for her?

but the baby's kicking

our baby is kicking

His baby that is in my uterus

is kicking

Have the last four years meant nothing?

I thought we were in love

I gasp for air

hoping that helps the confusion

the confusion

has created a haze around me so

I can hear him talking

but I don't understand

We're having a baby

and he's moving out?

He's moving in with her?

but we've spent 4 years together!

and we're having a baby!

We're making our family!

Someone is screaming

"I hate you, I hate you"

over and over and

when I realize it's me

I give in to the pain

and collapse

the baby is still kicking

our baby is still kicking?

My baby is still kicking

so as i sob uncontrollably

I hold my 8 month pregnant belly

and somehow calm him down

so I can let the denial I've been living in

disappear