Apr 30, 2010

Dark room

She sits alone, in a dark room
Thinking about you
She can't help but feel cold,
and blames it on what you've done to her
She trusted you.
She loved you.
And now she's sitting alone, in a dark room
You took her soul with you,
when you left her.
You left her without a soul.
She laid in the darkness, in a pool of her blood,
and you didn't look back.
She was terrified and you didn't care
She shudders at the memory.
This damage is something you can't undo.
She screams in pain. Excruciating pain
She will never be the same
She will never feel the same
She will never trust the same
She will never love the same.
You ruined her
and you didn't look back.
So she sits alone, in a dark room
Thinking about you.

Apr 26, 2010

Being Twenty Something.

I didn't write this, it was sent to my email a thousand years ago and I printed it off with the intention of framing it. I'm finally organizing my filing cabinet and I found it while unpacking. I hope you enjoy!

Being Twenty-Something

They call it the "Quarter Life Crisis". It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but they are just as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more that usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know you aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like and idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone that reads this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.


Apr 14, 2010

Feelings of a Moment

Brushed Aside

Apr 8, 2010


It's the end of the day
and we're wrapped up in each other
Everything is dark and silent
while we breath the same air
This dizzy cloud of bliss
has been longed for
All the hardships of today were worth it,
for this moment.
I'd be content to stay here forever
to ignore all other elements
of our busy hectic lives
Fascination, admiration, exhilaration,
a sense of euphoria is what you do to me
This is what I've been waiting for
what I've wanted,
what I've needed