cold

Cold.

Unfeeling.

hard to be surrounded with

visions of sun touching my face

warmth

but instead, 

I'm shivering.

the aftermath of your coldness

October

Guest writer!!! This one comes from my twitter buddy @jgquinton. 

It was in early October

I remember a hint of cold breaching my jacket

Just enough to provoke a shiver. 

The doctor said 6 months...

I think 6 weeks would be optimistic. 

All the things that we built

All the things that will be lost

All for each other

All lost with me.

I stepped over the rail and kicked my shoes to the river below

The icy metal stinging my feet.

I always thought I would believe in God in the end.

He didn't come, I still didn't ask. 

The wind picked up.

I didn't notice. 

A soft voice in my ear, just a whisper.

"jump"

It took all my will to step away. 

Crawl back over the rail.

I thought of you, and me, and life.

and for a split second I thought of the approaching headlights...

the metal crushing my body wasn't a thought at all.

People would never know the real reason 

...why my shoes float down the river.

Virginity

Hearts are racing
Blood is pulsing
Tonight will be the night

Hands are holding
Mouths are kissing
In this moment, it feels right

Clothes are falling
Bodies entwining
Just you and him, no light

Its happening
This is it
You'll never be the same

You are now a competitor,
a pawn, a soldier
in this love game

Sad Hopefulness

Shattered soul
picking up the pieces is
exhausting
Always picking up the pieces.
a sad hopefulness encourages you,
and your shattered soul
to try again.
Always trying again.
Tired of starting at the beginning
but don't know exactly what to do
Never know what to do.

Dark Corner

in a corner,
in the dark
soul twisting anger
and burning hot tears.
so hot it hurts to cry
but the hurt feels good,
so the tears continue.
what to do when it gets like this?
she doesn't know,
so she stays in the corner,
in the dark

Invasion

Tears roll down her face
Angry thoughts invade her space
Fights to live with grace

what the world has taught me

what the world has taught me
has not been easy
Lessons of lies and betrayal
of heart ache and pain.
So i sit here, in the dark
wondering what to do next.
Afraid to move,
afraid of more pain.
of more heartbreak and lies.
Afraid of the world