October

Guest writer!!! This one comes from my twitter buddy @jgquinton. 

It was in early October

I remember a hint of cold breaching my jacket

Just enough to provoke a shiver. 

The doctor said 6 months...

I think 6 weeks would be optimistic. 

All the things that we built

All the things that will be lost

All for each other

All lost with me.

I stepped over the rail and kicked my shoes to the river below

The icy metal stinging my feet.

I always thought I would believe in God in the end.

He didn't come, I still didn't ask. 

The wind picked up.

I didn't notice. 

A soft voice in my ear, just a whisper.

"jump"

It took all my will to step away. 

Crawl back over the rail.

I thought of you, and me, and life.

and for a split second I thought of the approaching headlights...

the metal crushing my body wasn't a thought at all.

People would never know the real reason 

...why my shoes float down the river.